If anyone is around me often enough, they'll will begin to see my pattern - I am a serial dieter. I leap from diet to diet like a addicts looking for their next bump - It's an eating disorder; serial dieting, yo-yo dieting, whatever you want to call it is a disorder, because it's an obsession, and although I can say that aloud, and even be alarmed by it - I'll continue you to do it, as if I don't have a choice. I'm not AS bad, I think losing $400 on the HCG trend was the last straw - I've tried that, I've been experimenting with JUDDD, I've done Atkins, taken all the pills you can think of, vegan, primal, you name it! Right now I'm simply back to walking everyday, and eating very low calorie, and since I was never convinced that HcG really did anything to prevent the symtoms of eating the way that is required on the diet, I thought about revisiting the diet part of the plan, and not paying all that money for the injections - I mean, how crazy is it that someone would give their self an injection everyday that isn't proven to work?
I'm a stress eater - I get stressed, and I want to eat. Last night after our meeting with the mortgage people, I was stressed even though we got the answers that were expected, and the help that was needed, and even some pretty good news, but I was still disappointed that we couldn't buy a home right this minute - we'll have to do a few things and revisit it in a few month. Anyways.. I came home and made us a healthy meal, and we did the dishes together - I then started itching for some sweets, and it was the stress, I know it! I could have went to bed and not eaten anymore, but we ended up going to the store, originally for ice cream, but instead I ended up making banana pudding; we split a small bowl and went to bed.
I don't feel comfortable at my weight, I should, but I don't. I'm not huge by any means, I'm the national average - a size 12. I have goals in mind - I just want to be a 9, I'm not asking to be a stick figure. I think after Thanksgiving I'll try something new until Christmas, then go from there if it's working. I need to get back into the gym, and get back into my workouts, running, and weight training. I'm sick of fearing weight gain! If I had a super power, it would be shape shifting that way I could eat a whole Pecan Pie and never gain a pound ;)