Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Standing Work Station Part #3

I know if you've read this blog you've read about my work struggles with obtaining a standing work station. They will not get me one without a doctor's note. I'm going to have to buy one for myself, and I've found that many people use alternative materials to prop up their computers. I think I'll do that to make sure I like it. There are some organizers at Walmart that apparently work well, and they only cost $12. I think it's the same ones I have for my shoes at home, so I may even stag one of those. At least they are already assembled. I just hope my co-workers aren't too weirded out, and this time I'm going to let my boss know before I do it so he's not shocked. Last time, I didn't let anyone know and they were weirded out. My old boss was by no means nice about it either, and even went as far to say that if my potential new boss at the time saw it he would think I was some sort of freak and not hire me. Well, look at me now - I got that job. I found a calculator online that showed based on your weight how much you'd be burning. It's only 350 more calories a day, but that's 1750 calores more a week, and 7000 calories a month which translates into 2 lbs of fat lost. It doesn't seem like much, but that doesn't account for the muscle tone in my legs that will return, the relief in my shoulders, or the fact I'm burning calories in other ways and eating a low calorie diet - it should translate into at least losing the weight I gained when I first went from standing to sitting. Plus, 2 x 12 = 24. Wouldn't you like to lose 24 lbs next year with one simply change?
It'll take some getting used to again, and I'm sure my back and feet will hurt until I adjust to it just like when I first started working in a job where I was standing all day. I'll also incorporate other physical movements like lifting my heels, squats, stretches, and since I'll already be standing I'll be encouraged to pace and make more trips about the building - I'm not chained to my desk. I also tend to snack less since my whole body is engaged in whatever I'm doing. So, even though the base calorie burn is low, there are so many opportunities to burn more! I also felt energized after work when I stood up all day, and working out was no big deal - I looked forward to expending the energy since I had more. I think sitting is like letting your body settle kind of like dirt does when you lay fresh soil down - it just packs in, and you keep having to adjust it and add more to it. Okay, that didn't make much sense... but what I'm getting at is.... OH! I know, it's like not starting a car for long periods, it's bad for the motor. Ha! That's better.
So I may run into Walmart today and check out the stock and see if there is something that will work. If it's exactly what I already have, I'm going to use what I have. I don't know if it's tall enough though, but we'll see. I want to get something in place by Monday. Like I said, I have some goals to meet before December 23rd, and that's only 29 days away at this point. I have issues with someone who is visiting, and part of it is that this person tends to place a lot of value on appearance when it comes to weight. Even though this person is extremely healthy, they don't understand that health and weight don't always go hand in hand. I'm perfectly healthy, but he sees my size as some sort of handicap. This person is much worse to others in the family, but those people have health issues - I don't. I'm fine. I'm healthy. I eat healthy, I exercise, I count calories, and I make adjustments to assure I'm continuing to do all those things. I wish this person saw that I'm always trying, but my body just isn't responding in the way they prefer it to. I'm not skinny, and I may never be skinny. Does that mean I'll never have their complete respect? Does that mean they'll always think less of me even though I try my best? I hope not.
I just wish I could lose weight and be like... "See! I can do it!" But I don't want that to be the reason I'm praised. I'm smart, hardworking, and compassionate - does that not count? Is the number on the scale or the size of my pants the end all be all judgement?

Standing work station...
I'll post pics when it's done.

Monday, November 23, 2015

Friendsgiving and Thanksgiving

I'm calling my strict Whole 30 experiment a bust, and calling it a day. It's not that I don't enjoy it, or that I'm not a fan... I just plain can't put my entire heart into it during the holidays. I don't want to dedicate myself to something that strict when I know for a fact I'm going to have 200 social occasions waving my favorite food in my face several times a week. So, I've decided that I'll start again on the 28th, and stick to it until Christmas. I'll likely take another 2-3 day break, eat well through New Years, and restart again on January 2nd and try to settle into a strict Whole 30 until I feel like living with a 80/20 lifestyle. I'm not totally throwing it out the window, I'm still using what I learned to my advantage and drinking water. I had a soda yesterday, but guess what?! It really wasn't that great. Back to all water today! With the holidays, birthdays, and various other celebrations this month it's almost impossible to keep to something that strict! I'm still counting calories though and still working to lose weight. I'm just not Whole 30ing - I'm eating my hummus, having a bit of pasta when it's in front of me, and not passing up a taste of chocolate... Like I said, I'll revisit it the day after Thanksgiving when things calm down. I have a goal that must be met by December 23rd, so I'll also be working out and breaking my Julian Michaels DVD back out. I'm also investing in my desk extension so I can stand and work - that's when the weight gain started. I think it'll make a difference for me going from sitting for 8 hours to standing since I also pace and fidget.
Anywho... yesterday was officially Richard's birthday! Although I took him to a concert for his gift, I also bought him some colone for his official big day, but hey... it smells amazing so I benefit too! We celebrated at the Honest Pint Saturday with 20-25 of his friends, and made sure to stay out until 1am so he could say he celebrated on his official birthday. He had a blast! I love get-togethers like that. I'm hoping we can do something similar for my birthday! Well.. I share a birthday with someone else in our group AND that same week we have others who share birthdays so it'd be cool to have a March birthday celebration.
Sunday was Friendsgiving at out friend's Zac and Kasie's new house. We really like it. We find ourselves saying what we like and dislike about houses when we visit others just because we're looking for one at the moment. My friend's Brian and Shanliegh have an AMAZING home that's been all redone. I love it! It's so open and warm - maybe we can find something similar. We may sacrifice location for an amazing deal, but that's ok. I just wanna find a house before April - that's the goal and we're looking online everyday. We also have a friend that's a Realtor, so he'll be helping us with the steps to buy our home. If we're not out of our apartment by April, we'll be going to a month to month lease, because I refuse to be there any longer than I have to.
We have bad luck with neighbors, the ones at the last apartment were loud college girls who loved to party, the last people who lived below us at this place were all about that bass, and had ridiculously LOUD sex, and the new lady is a bitch. I mean, she called the cops on us (me) for noise - I was sitting in my apartment, on the couch, in my PJ's, watching Disney. She hasn't bothered us since, but I don't think she's home much. I expect trouble in an apartment, but it takes a lot for me to get really mad about anything. Right now, I'm more worried about paying for our damage - Remy ripped up a big piece of the floor! I've been putting money aside, so it'll be fine.
Speaking of. NEVER EVER GET A FIRST PREMIER CREDIT CARD!!!! I got one when I was rebuilding my credit, and they have the WORST customer service. Seriously, the rep I just spoke with told me I was lying about the address for payments being wrong on the site, and didn't even apologize when he looked it up and saw that I was right. What an ass hat.
Anywho, that's all the update I have. OH! I joined some really cool things to make extra money that I plan to use to pay down my credit cards. Hopefully it works! I plan to work hard to bring down all balances by next year and eliminate balances on my two largest cards! Wish me luck!


Friday, November 20, 2015

Oh No, You're Offended?

I guess I made a few people mad with my last post, but what do you expect? Yeah, I called some people out, because a lot of them are only being Christian when it's a convenience - it's passive Christianity. You want me to "like & share" these stupid memes about your religion, but you don't want to live it. You don't want to practice what you preach and emulate Christ. How do you expect to spread the good news if you choose to only strive for a cherry picked selection that fits your life at this time? Don't get mad at me, and say "times have changed", because compassion, loving, charity, giving, selflessness... all of that has no timeline, it doesn't expire. So say you know the Lord all day, and tout that you are a Christian, but also share that although Jesus told you to be accepting and charitable you're flat out telling him no when it comes to those thousands of children refugees and their families. You answer for that, not me. You can't show me a phrase in the Bible that says to go forth into the world in fear and only extend a helping hand to certain people when it's convenient and safe for you. If you know where you're going, why do you fear? He died for you, and yet you're not willing to simply be couragous for him, you're not willing to emulate him. Either HE has the whole world in his hand, or he doesn't. You can't have it both ways, and confidently call yourself a Christian, because you have no right to deny or judge those who are escaping terror.
I'm sorry about preaching, but I feel like I've opened a Bible more than a lot of people who claim it's on their right hip. Problem is, their gun is on their left hip and they are a total misrepresentation of what Jesus said. This is why Christianity is having a falling out, and why folks like me have left organized religion behind. We're ashamed of you. We don't want to be associated with you. You give southern folks a bad name, because not all of us are clinging to a Bible and a rifle in fear that the government and foreign folks are out to get us!
I've had one person explain to me what they really meant in that they wanted to deny refugees, and at least he still wanted to help. It still doesn't make any sense to me. We already expect about 70,000 immigrants A YEAR, so what's 10,000 more. He said they have contributed to the downfall of this country, but it's always been like that. We've always had people arrive with few issues. It's the folks born here that you should be scared of. I repected his opinion, but I otherwise have some really ignorant folks posting stuff on Facebook. FACT CHECK YOUR DAMN MEMES PEOPLE!

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

My Opinion on the Refugee Debate.

I’m just going to get this over with in one enormous post.
**Looks at Unitarian Principles**
1. 1st Principle: The inherent worth and dignity of every person;
2. 2nd Principle: Justice, equity and compassion in human relations;
3. 3rd Principle: Acceptance of one another and encouragement to spiritual growth in our congregations;
4. 4th Principle: A free and responsible search for truth and meaning;
5. 5th Principle: The right of conscience and the use of the democratic process within our congregations and in society at large;
6. 6th Principle: The goal of world community with peace, liberty, and justice for all;
7. 7th Principle: Respect for the interdependent web of all existence of which we are a part. Principles**
**Opens Book of Mormon**
"charity is the pure love of Christ, and it endureth forever," (Moroni 7:47).
**Opens Bible**
Acts 20:35 In all things I have shown you that by working hard in this way we must help the weak and remember the words of the Lord Jesus, how he himself said, ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.’”
Hebrews 13:16 Do not neglect to do good and to share what you have, for such sacrifices are pleasing to God”
Deuteronomy 15:7-11 “If among you, one of your brothers should become poor, in any of your towns within your land that the Lord your God is giving you, you shall not harden your heart or shut your hand against your poor brother, but you shall open your hand to him and lend him sufficient for his need, whatever it may be. Take care lest there be an unworthy thought in your heart and you say, ‘The seventh year, the year of release is near,’ and your eye look grudgingly on your poor brother, and you give him nothing, and he cry to the Lord against you, and you be guilty of sin. You shall give to him freely, and your heart shall not be grudging when you give to him, because for this the Lord your God will bless you in all your work and in all that you undertake. For there will never cease to be poor in the land. Therefore I command you, ‘You shall open wide your hand to your brother, to the needy and to the poor, in your land.’
Proverbs 21-13 Whoever closes his ear to the cry of the poor will himself call out and not be answered.
**Opens Quran**
"Those who believe, and do deeds of righteousness, and establish regular prayers and regular charity, will have their reward with their Lord. On them shall be no fear, nor shall they grieve" (2:277).
…nope, can’t find it. I can’t find where it says anywhere that go into the world in fear, allow preconceived notions and ignorance rule over you so you may turn a deaf ear and cold heart to those in need.
It’s incredibly sad to see those who claim to be followers of Christ throw up their hand to those escaping the terror surrounding their homes. It saddens my heart that those folks can look into a child’s eyes and say, “No, I will not help you. You are not welcome here.” There is a disconnect, a lack of compassion, and an incredible amount of ignorance when it comes to understanding refugees and folks are only making things worse with their unreliable sources for information. Instead, these same people are praising their Governors for denying asylum to refugees when they don’t even have the ability to do so.  The same folks are praising presidential candidates stating that there should be extensive screening processes for refugees, when there are already federal guidelines for extensive screening processes. Denying refuge to these people is putting those most vulnerable in danger. You are sentencing thousands of innocent men, women, and children to death because why? Oh, because American already has its own people to care for?! You can take that argument and shove it up your self-righteous poop shoot, because every single person who has said that has yet to prove that they have or are willing to extend this argument into action. You’re not going to do shit for anyone already in the U.S., you’re just going to use that argument to further demonize refugees, and pretend you have a heart for those in need that translate into compassion and giving. Do you know how many hundreds of thousands came here after 9/11? No? That would be because allowing refugees to come here is the safest way for them to relocate and resettle. Maybe you guys are getting refugees mixed up with illegal immigrants, but I’m sorely disappointed with a lot of you and although it’s frightening… I’m not shocked that some of the southern Governors and a few of the current and former presidential candidates have been outspoken in their ignorance.

Now, go ahead. Post some ridiculous “Like & Share” meme about how you’re proud to be a Christian or how we should help our poor or look to Vets as heroes… because that seems to be the extent of those “passionate” beliefs for some of you.

Whole30 Day 4 - Temptations

The Whole 30 is going well, and I heard that after day 4 it gets easier. So far, it's not been that bad. Dinner has been different, but full of flavor. We had turkey legs and a sweet potato the night before, and bunless burgers last night with avocado. My lunch has been the most challenging just because I'm not good at remembering to pack it so I end up at Whole Foods. The good news is that I've been using my Tessamae's dressing so I don't have to spend money on their dressing which they add to the weight of the salad. The salad should just come with dressing, but it's Whole Foods so... price gouging is their thing.
Tonight we're going out with friends to my favorite restaurant Taco Mamacita. I've decided after weighing this morning that a major cheat isn't worth messing up my success, so no tacos for me. I'll be having their half roasted Peruvian chicken, turnip greens, and plantains - it seemed to be the safest thing to eat with the least ingredients. I'll also have a glass of wine, but I'm downing extra water so hopefully it'll just run right through me LOL! I love their Sangria, and really.. somethings gotta give. Saturday has very limited options as to what I can have - we're going to an Irish pub for Richard's birthday and everything has potatoes except the hot wings. I'll likely end up having dry rubbed hot wings and a salad (with my own dressing again). Sunday is Friendsgiving, so I'll be making a delicious side that is healthy for me to eat and I'll eat some turkey. Planning ahead for these bumps in the road helps. Oh! Friday we're having a company lunch, but I'm just going to bring my lunch that day, because I don't care about attending anyhow. I'll have to bring a dish, but I'm just going to make it and send it on it's way.
I'm just now feeling human again with the whole no caffeine or sugar thing, so that's good. I like the Whole30! I don't find it as restrictive as some stated. 

Monday, November 16, 2015

The Whole30 Holiday Struggle...

I started the Whole30 yesterday after a decision that I just had to eliminate sugar from my diet, because my sugar intake was out of control. I battled a pounding headache all day yesterday, because eliminating sugar means no soda since this way of eating also excludes artificial sweetners. My headache is a little better today, but I'm exhausted! I'm used to eating carbs, having soda, and enjoying a bite or 3 of candy - it's sad that I'm already feeling the effects after only one day. We went out to dinner last night, and I actually did not struggle with eating out like I thought I would. I had a PLAIN sweet potato (no dairy on this WOE either), grilled veggies, and a large steak. For breakfast I had a fritatta with onions, mushrooms, spinach, and tomatoes with a clemetine orange for "dessert". Next weekend will be harder....
Friday = pot luck at work and I already volunteered to make mac & Cheese.
Saturday = Richard birthday and ugh... cake :(
Sunday = Friendsgiving, but I think I can handle that one.
I know there will be turkey at Friendsgiviing dinner, so I'll have that and the side that I plan to make that is loaded with delicious brussel sprouts, sweet potatoes, and caremalized onions. I'm sure there will be raw veggies, and I'll make sure to eat a big lunch so not to be starving.
I think on actual Thanksgiving, I'll be less worried. I'll make sure to control myself, and still stick with my own dishes but I'm not going to pass up a taste of my mom's home-cooking! No Way! Luckily, she usually makes green beans that are naturally flavored with animal fat, so at least those and the meat are compliant. I'll make sweet potatoes too, and I may be able to be compliant with the Whole 30 through the entire 30 days. Since I plan to stick with this, I think it's okay to enjoy those special ocassions. The goal is 80/20 over all.
Now if you don't mind, I'll end it here.
I'm still exhausted from the lack of sugar and carbs... 

Friday, November 13, 2015

Life Updates

I haven't been writing much lately. Since October, I've been resting up and catching up on some stuff. October was extremely busy, and we had a few things to do around home and some financial things to take care of. Toward the end of next week we'll FINALLY have everything for our home loan since my student loans will enter repayment and I'll finally know the monthly payment amount once they consider my income. I don't think it'll be too bad, and the actual monthly payment will be what's considered in our home loan so we can get approved for more. We just want away from the side of town we're in now - I have no desire to live near the mall anymore. We're hoping to move to Red Bank of Hixson since it's so close to work and the school's are better (for future reference), but who knows. We may end up in the middle of no where.
This week I surprised Richard with concert tickets to see a few of his favorite bands. It was an early birthday gift. His reaction was awesome!! So worth getting home at 2am and getting up at 7am for work the next day! We saw Sevendust, Breaking Benjamin, and Shinedown - Shinedown puts on a great show! This was also the first time I've been to Huntsville, AL. Well... I went once to visit the school there, but this was the first time I've seen any other part of it. I really liked the concert venue, and there was almost no traffic going there or coming back. Yeah... screw going to Atlanta if a band is going to be in Huntsville (or Nashville for that matter). I wasn't aware that Huntsville was smaller than Chattanooga, but hey... it had everything we needed and a nice mall to waste time in.
His actual birthday is November 22nd!
I invited 70 people, but hopefully they won't all show up, because damn...
We have 3 other birthday parties to attend coming up, a friendsgiving dinner, and I have a spa party on Saturday. It must be the season to entertain!